The west ham flirtation with the big boys

I like so many west ham fans i looked foward to this season so much in fact i couldn't wait for the summer to be over ,after last years brilliant performance i was thinking maybe just maybe a top four place everything seemed to be in place ,a massive new stadium ,lots of new signings (if we only new ) there seemed to be a much healthier outlook all round ,but three months in and the wife keeps asking me "what the matter love " she says theres been a real change in my mood and do you know what she's right ,after one of these cloberings i wake up in the morning and like every nightmare you slowly come to terms with it and it slips away from your consciousness but with our beloved west ham in this septic tank im in a bad mood for the rest of the day ,
I, like a lot on here have been following the club for half a century it had become my identification i fully expected that when my time on this mortal coil was up my casket would have my west ham shirt drapped over it ,you see i dont have many hobbies i like to tinker about in the garden but thats about it my greatest enjoyment was watching west ham on the box and the occasional trip to uppers where by the way the atmosphere was palpable especially on a cold winters night with the lights on ,sure we were in trouble lots of times but that was all part of the deal ,we were a family club from the east end our goal was maybe one day a top four finnish but if it didnt happen then what the f**k we were happy with mid table ,i remember those majic decades the 70s ,80s and 90s when we were every other clubs supporters favorite second team ,sure we were relegated e few times (that time under Roeder 2002 ) but that was par for the course we knew we'd be back after a couple of seasons ,it was all part of the hunt ,but now their turning uppers into a block of flats or a car park and the bulldozers are breaking up the place and breaking our hearts ,the three business people wanted more ,they saw us completing with the big four in the premiership and having great encounters with Real Madrid and Barca .
But now im afraid i will soon have to stop watching my beloved west ham for the same reason i gave up watching and listening to the news every night ,far to depressing